That's the word. Being a head to programme something that massive and prolong program is such a nerve wrecking feeling.
Recently I want to do an obesity intervention programme for clinic staffs at where I am currently working. The thing is I always do event but to extend this program is for 6 months prohibition makes me more nervous as to ensure it still running strong at the end of the programme.
The programme merely very simple as I want it just nice for my CV thus gaining CPD points so I can get promoted having increased in salary in the half year later in May. But oh boy, it ain't easy as its may seem.
To have it clean on the paper easy peasy but to done it in real; such an horror experience. I can't sleep well, I always have my thoughts running thinking what should I do with the programme. It just eats me alive! Now the programme have been highlighted to our big boss; the Director of Health District of Kuantan. So I guess there is no turning back. Everybody have their hopes and anxiety to do the programme. I just hope the 6 months pass very quickly. I really hope I can cope with the other programmes too. As I also want to start on the Mother-Friendly Breastfeeding Clinic for my clinic. This will be a benchmark for me to steep more higher than before thus I want to get greater achievement in fast track. My goal is to aim a job at Putrajaya. Highly ambitious I know. But now I know why not all can be on the top. It requires a lot of responsibilities and you have to be very brave to say what you want.
I want to make sure the programme runs smoothly without any bump or hiccup. Pray for my plan to succeed please. HUUU..