TENSEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

omg....lord...help me...plezzz...i dunno wat to do rite now...all that i can think is to go to sumwhere where i can be so irresponsible..be free...let go of everything...i just felt so crush...i felt like there is no way out..i'm in a black hole that have no exit and entrance to me or others to help me...i reli need sumone...i just felt horrible to be sum jerk...i hate to get mad..i hate to be powerless on my own self..i currently felt so close to death but yet i didn't do any preparation towards it...i'm practically broke and have no one to turn to...i felt dizzy and lonely...i want to happy...i want to love and be loved...i need him to be mine..but i guess there is never him...i'm reli alone...i want to have him...but its not right...i can't owned him...i'm very wrong...i reli want to have him...but i have to let him go...but i can't...i am reli sori...i let down so many people...i even let down my own self...i can have everything that i ever wanted..but then i'm too blind to see...i wish to go away...god help me...